Reflections on Motherhood

 Mother's Day is coming up this weekend. I haven't heard if any of my kids will be up but I don't mind having a quiet day. I'm not one for going out to eat in a crowded restaurant and just prefer to stay home. I think I will just treat myself to a quiet weekend this year. I am taking the weekend off from all the yardwork I have been doing for the past two months, and I might even skip the housework.. well some of it maybe. I might even go shopping and treat myself to something new that is not for hiking, working out or for the house. Maybe a new purse, or something comfortable to wear on weekends. I am not buying any more clothes for work. I will make do with what I have for the last eight months that I will be sitting in that office. 

I have been reflecting a bit lately on motherhood. I had thought it would be so much easier  and less stressful or worrisome once they all became adults. Well I was very wrong letting myself believe that! Is it because we are all single? I know it is harder not having someone to share the load. I'm sure I will always worry about them. I just want them to be safe, secure, happy and successful. That's not asking too much, it it?

When they were infants, I was constantly checking on them as they slept to be sure they were alright. There were so many stories about crib(cot) death at the time I was a nervous wreck. Then as they got older it was watching out for choking hazards, falling, or anything that would cause injury. Then as they got older and ventured out, the worries are still injuries, or someone taking them and hurting them. Bicycles are a whole other set of worries, but yet we celebrate them learning to ride. We then do it again when they become teens and learn to drive. Oh aren't we happy we don't have to drive them everywhere! Oh but the sleep we lose worrying about them when they are out. It never stops... Trust me. 

My children are my joy. I would be lost without them. They are love. They are loved. That is why I will never regret having any of my five children. Even with the heartbreak of losing Trevor. There was so much love and joy in the years I had with him. 

This Mother's day I will celebrate my children. They make being a mother the best thing in the world.